But at least there is an ending in sight - something I wouldn't have looked forward to so much when in better health- and I know that, by the time my next course starts, in October, I'll be so desperate to be back into study-mode, that I'll forget the struggle it's been for me this time.
That's the story of my life nowadays, though :/
Don't get me wrong. Not every day is full of pain, and doom-and-gloom. My hubby has a magical way of lightening things for me so that, even when at my worst, health-wise, and the pain is so great, I can't even cry, he can get me to at least smile at a joke!
I was blessed greatly, the day he and I met.
I had taken time off from the factory I worked nights at, just so I could re-acquaint myself with 'normal' life for a change, and my then-future hubby walked in to the place where myself and a friend had chosen to go for a couple of drinks. He was accompanied by a mutual friend and, as I caught sight of him, without knowing what I was going to say, I told my friend, Liz 'That's the man I'm going to marry.'
She looked at me as if I were mad, as I'd not too long ago sworn I'd have nothing to do with men, after a nasty break-up. She saw our mutual friend, and looked back at me, startled.
I realised what she thought, and laughed, ' No, not Paul, the man with him!'
As I said that, Paul spotted us, and came towards us with his companion. I felt as if I were about 14, and seeing a boy, as a boy, for the first time and, as Paul approached, I turned to Liz, and whispered, 'Don't you dare tell them what I just said - it was a joke, okay!'
She looked at me, winked, and said, 'If you say so.'
Paul introduced us, and I looked up the the most gorgeous green eyes I'd ever seen. My hubby is just over 6 feet tall, to my 5'2", so I did have to look upwards, and I thought he looked like a hugely better-looking version of Mick Jagger, but without the rubber-lips! Lol
The funny thing was, the minute our eyes met, I knew that what I'd said would come true, as did my hubby, when we spoke of it shortly afterwards.
Three months to the day of our meeting, we married - it would have been sooner, if hubby had had his way, but I knew this would be my only wedding, so I wanted it to be the more traditional kind, with a dress, and a church etc.
We had no money, really, so did it all on a shoe-string, but I look back at the photos my family and friends took of the day for us, and I can honestly say it was the happiest day of my life.
We've been together 27 years this year, and there isn't a day gone by where we haven't told each other of our love - I know - It sounds so schmaltzy, doesn't it? :)
But that's far from the truth because, although we've had our ups and downs, as all couple do, I've always done the one thing my Nan advised me to do, the day we married and, many years later, I found comes from Ephesians*, in the Bible - we've never gone to bed on an argument!
Sometimes it's taken staying up most of the night to sort things out {grin}, but her advice has stood the test of time for us and, now my health has become so poorly, it stands us well, still!
I can't say that I was ever especially close to my Nan, but she holds a special place in my heart because of that advice!
* 'Wherefore, now that you have put away falsehood, speak truth each one of you with his neighbour, because we are members belonging to one another. Be wrathful, and yet do not sin; let the sun not set with you in a provoked state.' - Ephesians 4:25-26
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